Sandy

For the last few months I have shared with you my journey with my stepmom Sandy who has ALS (aka Lou Gehrig’s disease).  Since Sandy’s diagnosis I knew the inevitable end would be her death.  As the disease progressed I made it a priority to go see her every month.  I wanted to make sure I had spent as much time with her as I could.  I am so thankful I was able to do that.  During my visit to see her in April I was able to say goodbye to her.  I won’t forget it.  I never got to say to goodbye to my Mom or Dad.  Being able to share my feelings and tell Sandy thank you for raising me and loving me like a daughter was really important to me.  In May I took Jackson down to see her with me.  She was able to see Jackson one last time.  My June trip was planned for the end of this month on the way home from our Florida vacation and both Jackson and Kevin would be with me.  But Sandy’s ALS had other plans.  The day before we left for Florida I got the call I knew would eventually come.  ALS had claimed another victim, Sandy.  She died in her sleep.  I’m thankful for that.  Even though I knew it would happen, it wasn’t any easier.  It still hit me like a ton of bricks.  I’m still trying to work through the grief of my Dad and now Sandy is gone too.  My only consolation is that they are together again.  We still plan to stop in Denver on the way home and I am dreading it.  I know once I get there it will really hit me.  I won’t be going to her apartment, I won’t be taking her to see a movie, and I won’t be stopping by McDonald’s to pick up a cheeseburger for her.  As much as I hated watching her die, I am going to miss my trips to see her terribly.  And regardless of the fact that so much of who Sandy was had already died before she did, I am going to miss seeing her so much.

For Sandy, Dad and Mom:

The Rainbow comes and goes,

And lovely is the Rose,

The Moon doth with delight

Look round her when the heavens are bare,

Waters on a starry night

Are beautiful and fair;

The sunshine is a glorious birth;

But yet I know, where’er I go,

That there hath past away a glory from the earth.