Vince Lombardi said “It’s not whether you get knocked down. It’s whether you get up again.” When we got our first assessment of Jackson a few weeks ago it knocked me down. Reading my son was at a 6 month development age was tough. I just wanted to stay down. But no matter how much it hurts, I always have to get back up, for Jackson. So I prepared myself for the rest of the assessments that were coming. All of Jackson’s therapists did an assessment to measure where he is developmentally. These assessments will help us determine what services he needs in the public school system when he is transitioned in a couple of months. Essentially they give us a starting point to develop goals for Jackson at school. The highest he scored was 9 months from his speech and occupational therapists. Luckily we got those assessments after I had gotten back up. Otherwise I may have been knocked down for a long time. Listen, I know Jackson isn’t where he should be. I’m not ignorant or living in some fantasy world. I know he is very delayed. It’s reading about his delays and inabilities that hurt my heart. To me Jackson is a beautiful, funny, active, ornery, laid back, happy, routine liking little boy who has selective listening. To be told otherwise is offensive to me! How dare someone say something negative about my child! It’s like when you believe you have the most perfect child in the world and you go to a teacher/parent conference and find out your angel is really a terror. You don’t want to believe it, but you have to face it. Facing reality isn’t always easy. At the end of the day though, Jackson is simply Jackson. My son. He may be nearly 3 years old but only a 6 - 9 month old developmentally. I am just thankful he is developing. He’s my baby and I love him with all of my heart no matter what. And no matter what, I always will.